In the dazzling yet perilous streets of New York City, Josh Kilmer-Purcell leads a life of exhilarating dualities. By day, he navigates the cutthroat world of advertising as an art director, a realm of sharp suits and sharper wits. But as night falls, the suits are swapped for sequins, and Josh transforms into the sparkling, unstoppable Aquadisiac. "I Am Not Myself These Days" tracks Josh's journey through this double life with heart-wrenching honesty and biting humor, revealing the stark contrasts between his daytime normalcy and his nighttime escapades in the underground drag scene. This memoir is not just a tale of glitter and glamour but also a deeply personal account of seeking identity and love amidst the chaos of a divided existence. Kilmer-Purcell's writing is both darkly funny and poignantly reflective, painting a vivid portrait of a man wrestling with the boundaries of self and the societal definitions of normalcy. With each page, the reader is invited into the heart of a life lived boldly in the shadows of pre-dawn, offering "plenty of dishy anecdotes and moments of tragi-camp delight." "I Am Not Myself These Days" stands as a testament to the beauty of embracing one's true self, even when that self is beautifully complex and wonderfully conflicted.